so many times when i find pride at the forefront of my heart, when i want someone to hear how i've grown in You but instead stole glory for myself, when i realize this, i thank God so much that He is still there.  i need His help to even share His love! if this is what He has called me to do and made me to be, how much more do I need him for everything else every day. Still has he called for so much more. Woo! "Mercy anew" for some reason became easier and easier to believe and take hold the first time i tasted it.  but somehow with time, i've becoming more ill-at-ease to ask for it- but i know He'll give it.  i know he is good!   let nothing separate us from Your love God!  it is inevitable to eventually understand the weight of sin while increasingly discovering the weight of his glory and grace. just like when Paul says he does what he doesn't want to do and doesn't do what he wants to do....mm praise God the letter ends him rejoicing in the power of Jesus to overcome.

You go before me that I may lay my brokenness down before You.  You stay before me that I may learn how to follow.  You are behind me that I may walk by faith. You are right beside me that I may turn and gaze.  You are in me that I may live.

Who am I that You are mindful of me?

may my mistakes only be room for You to display Your grace!

one of the most beautiful thing is to know why the sky is blue and still be able to marvel at it.  to directly marvel at the work of His hands.  to marvel at His beauty.

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Just received an email!  Intro greets: "Hey there missionaries,"  :)

followed are paragraphs of updates and some things we should prepare for before we go.   i've never found myself so excited about a "to-do" list.  we're given a list of things to do before we serve overseas in Mindanao, Philippines (anyone just thought of 'McDonald's'?).

here's to God for how he is.  that he sets joy before those who seek him in the secret.  He is good.

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finished my last day of class as a junior at UT!  also, currently looking forward to Einstein's opening in an half an hour.  thank God for the 24/7 FAC during exam week.