perhaps truly, our greatest desire is know and be known.  more and more I see that my desire to know someone or some thing well grows the more I am exposed to those things or people.  To know something in and out.  and i find that it's fulfilling because there's a purpose in all things that have been created. there's a purpose in all the things that sit in front of me.  the remote control, the bowl of spaghetti, my keys, my books, the paintings on the wall, my roommates. it is this one desire i intentionally note. that it is one single desire.  it may come out as different desires for different things but ultimately it is in our spirit, in our heart to know and be known. and it shows. it shows in my life; it shows in the lives of the people next to me, across from me, far away from me. it shows in our pursuit of many passions, hobbies, or kinds of relationships (family, friendships, romance, children, mentorship).

because i'm so limited, in a way through in which the Lord speaks to me through my family compared with other people, I'm often moved, or rather desire to be moved, by every single detail.  I want to catch it all.  God is so detailed in the small things. It amazes me.  It astounds me.  He not only moves but moves with all of his wisdom and power and kindness and gentleness.  Can you imagine?  Someone that thinks about all of you and knows all of you right at that moment. and considers it all before they speak.  because they want to love you the best they can right where you're at.  but this idea might not be too crazy for Jesus.  it's the only way He ever does anything.  He is impartial and He is eternal. There is so much more. He is more. In His humility He doesn't get jealous or angry that we often see Him as less. It is just humanly impossible to fully know God.  (correct me if I'm wrong.)  He is humble because Jesus knows He has been and will be glorified by His Father. But my response is this:  not being able to know something fully doesn't mean I can't do my best to try to.  A good friend of mine once said, "Just because earth 'isn't our home,' never implied we shouldn't enjoy the visit." This ought to be taken with conviction, wisdom, discipline, etc, of course.  But even so, it is crucial to remember that we cannot do this on our effort.  the Holy Spirit brings Truth when the time comes and I can just rest assured that right up until my last breath, what He's revealed to me is enough for me to welcome Jesus back rightly.  By Him I cry out Abba. Through him, the church will know the  clear distinction of what is good and evil, that we may always say yes to the good and put away what is evil in which grieves him and the people we love.  because without God we wouldn't know how to love our enemies and why that is absolutely necessary that we do.    There is only a hand full of people God entrusts us to love them as He loves them. But in that hand-full of people, hold his will, his dreams, his promises, his relationship. By him, we know what is necessary for those that He loves and I have come to love and what is detrimental to the same group of people.  You want your heart to stay alive and beating and burning? You want a big goal to pursue? Take part in something bigger than yourself and give all of yourself to?  something that will keep your heart alive? Abide in Him. Abide in His Word.  Make effort to keep unity and be clear minded so that you can pray.  take up His charge to make disciples of all nations.  That's what's bigger than ourselves.  At the end of day, up until His coming, you'll find that all this life has to do with one thing.

Love.

and this Love has a name.