a good friend of mine reminded me once again the one essential thing needed in this life.  that though there are things in my life that i do not understand, the most important thing in which i can take delight in is that i know God that He knows me.  sometimes i wonder that if we could only see and recognize every blessing in my life, see if we won't be overwhelmed by his goodness.

some reason i'm awake this morning with a sturdiness in my heart.  i still feel like i'm going into war, and sometimes silence is the biggest enemy.  but i will wait.