good to be learning so freely again.  the hiatus i took my heart had just been in a war.  at times with my strength wearing off. at times it would be strengthened.   i've missed hearing from Him with such assurance.  thank You.  i love this freedom to worship and love and learn. it's what we're made to do.  do not cast me away from Your presence.

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contrary to what a lot of us might feel when we see a cop on the road, i realize lately I feel extremely safe when i see one though they might be hiding or feel like they're out to catch us. it's as if i've come to an understanding that we're supposed to live in a city in harmony in justice, together. our dear policemen play their part. we play ours. 

but i know that feeling. the moment we see a police car.  we check our speedometers. we check our lights. we check everything and anything and suddenly you doubt everything that's going right even though you know you didn't commit a crime.  you know, just in case.  those times where suddenly i feel like i have everything illegal in my trunk or just hanging out my window.  and then i assure myself that i don't and just feel silly afterwards.

but it's funny.  the ones we get anxious about we know they're the ones we call when something happens in our home or wherever we are.  in the end we know they're the good guys.  we trust them. we hope they'll justly take care of car wrecks and burglaries.  they are ambassors of justice. a costly weight but most rewarding and utmost necessary.

i wonder people feel when they see an ambulance.

i felt incredibly safe driving home with one following me earlier this morning. i was so in the moment i actually drove slower. then i was going 40 on a 45 so he switched lanes and went ahead of me.  i was a bit bummed.  but while they were behind me, at that moment the Lord spoke to me saying that i have angels protecting you. He assured me in my spirit that He is watching not over over me but that every step He is behind me.  If anything would've happened in that 5 minutes I had left on the road, aid would come my way.  this is what being in His family is like.  i felt empowered at that moment. to move forward to go wherever he goes.  He has never left and never will.

but i remember also, that these police ambulance drivers, and paramedics- they have families. They are part of one. they are someone's father, husband, brother, or son. #prayforthoseonHishearttoday