This stage of life where friends my age have broken out of the college life. We have grasped, and perhaps are still trying to grasp, the next step in this career stage of life. Trying to sustain, secure, ground ourselves in what we believe is ourselves. The self, that has been formulated by God, by our peers, by our family, by strangers... Many go into this post-college stage with confidence. Many more go in with questions. Even when some stability arises, some time after, uncertainty still rises up. All—which I believe—are for good, tough, challenging, and necessary reasons to stretch us and give us space to mature.
The question I find myself asking now is, "What am I supposed to do in this time? How do I relate to these people now?"
Here are the friends I have grown to love since college. That tight pocket of time where we lived and breathed the same air and shared the same meals even. Now every time we gather, the times spent are often connected with someone's milestone in life. There are more and more things to catch up on. And there are times where I feel like I have less and less words to share. But my understanding that life is tough journey lavished with His grace has never been as evident. I remember praying for my friends when we all first went our separate ways. Then the realization comes when I can no longer play as much of a role in their lives as before. It was a cold hard truth, and one I truly did miss. But even that the Lord is teaching me to let go and entrust. Sometimes the deepest growth in others needs to happen when it's out of our hands but in His.
I have been reading Ecclesiastes 3. Little did I know the Lord is unfolding this before me right before my eyes.
"Teach me Your ways, o God."
