no matter how hard you try to avoid it,
the Lord never forgets about the needs that need to be taken cared of in the heart.

some thing I realized is that He cares about my hurt a lot more than I do.
I think I've gotten too tired, though. I've been there before and His grace helped me fight through it every time.

Maybe in life God gives us the portion of strength enough for a trial and once we know it and becomes victorious over it, that strength we had to go through that trial becomes the threshold of the next trial. Then we become stronger and stronger- the more we lean on Him longer and longer.

Jehovah-jireh.

I think if it were possible, it'd be interesting to create a timeline that shows the moment when every person I've ever met first enter my life. I wonder if I'll be surprised at how perfect God orchestrated them into my life. I wonder what I'll think when I see those who stayed in touched with me long enough to pick me up when I've tripped up and when I've gotten weary. I wonder what I'll think and feel about the names I'd see starting to fade away. I hope I'll see those whom God had brought near to me, and reveal to me if I had received them well, along with those that I was too blinded or too busy to have recognized them. I wonder what I'll think about when I look at the brevity of 100 years spanned out before me. It certainly makes me recognize that every encounter is precious and is as meaningful as we make it. The things that people advise for those who are younger about loving boldly---I'm starting to see the reason behind it. And it certainly makes me realize that I need to and want to be always sensitive to the Spirit so that I may love most genuinely and not dismiss any chance to minister to someone.

Praise the Lord!