God, show me what you have given me that nothing of this world can ever give.

blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted

matthew 5:4

a good friend of mine reminded me once again the one essential thing needed in this life.  that though there are things in my life that i do not understand, the most important thing in which i can take delight in is that i know God that He knows me.  sometimes i wonder that if we could only see and recognize every blessing in my life, see if we won't be overwhelmed by his goodness.

some reason i'm awake this morning with a sturdiness in my heart.  i still feel like i'm going into war, and sometimes silence is the biggest enemy.  but i will wait.

This scattered rain through out the day has proven to be rather therapeutic for the stress and worries I've accumulated over this past month.  Heartaches have never gone too well with me- but I suppose neither does it go well with most people.  Upon the decision to move back to Houston, I had not considered the need back home.  Within that last month until my lease in West Campus would end, as I pondered on this possibility of having to pack my bags and move 167 miles instead of a good 15 miles to north Austin, God slowly revealed to me why it was necessary for me to return home.  At first, I honestly didn't see the need for me to return home.   In my selfishness and limited understanding, I had thought that mom had already been living on her own for the past few years, it would be sufficient for us to see each other every so often.  Upon this thought, i realized I had been giving to my mom what would only suffice.  To the woman that had sacrificed her lifestyle, her interests for me,  I had only been giving her what was convenient.  Surely, she had in mind for me a good future like all moms would truly desire for their children.  There is a side of me I do not know- it terrifies me. There's an impatient, angry me somewhere in my heart that's been deeply rooted.  And it was against the person who had given up the most for me, next to Christ.  Maybe it was the move to America I resented; I still remember the day I had tears flowing endlessly down my face at the HK International Airport as a 9 year old.  Maybe it was the many unanswered questions to my family, my friends, my fears.

But I've learned to stick it out until that new situation grows on you.  Stick it out until those new faces grow on you.  Until you are able to see the people in front of you like the Lord does. Stick it out.  I'm convinced that we either must pray until we are to do so before we can call it quits and say our goodbyes.  Love until it hurts, then love some more.  Until only love remains.  Let the people grow on you as you keep asking God if right now, where I am is still where he wants you to be.  If yes, then love the people as well as you can and learn as best as you could.  Be diligent in listening to your boss, to your coworkers, to your newfound friends. Be watchful of the ways the people you meet and how they're moved.  It might be a lot for an initial encounter but sometimes, if we choose to be attentive, God gives us eyes to see what's really going on behind that happy, peaceful, anxious, or worrisome person in front of you.  Carry God's very peace into your work place and just wait and see how he opens doors and comfort people's hearts.

For those called to the work place, love as best as you know how to and continue to lean on Jesus.  For those called to schools, love as best as you've been loved as well and also continue to abide.  For those called to ministry and missions, also, love.  It is how much we've loved God with all our soul, mind, heart, and strength that matters.  And surely, it will become what only matters.

there's nothing like when you realize God is the reality you are living in.  And that means we're in for a grand miracle.

First, Lord, save me from myself.

there are just some days where it just feels like goodness is all around you.  take the time to soak it all in.  Grace. it leads to deeper things.  Christ's life in me keeps my heart alive.  Drink deep!!!!

There is something special, something even heavenly if I may, when you recognize faithfulness in someone. No lights. No fame.  To see the greatest pride they take is in the day to day- still believing that what they are called to makes the world's difference to God.  That the person right before their eyes means a whole lot to God.

often times our worship reflects our knowledge of who God really is.

was just driving to pick up my mom from work and the Lord gives me a much needed heart check.  i was singing with all the air that i've got in my lungs and a question came up.  Does my worship now, alone and behind four closed doors, with as much faith and power that I felt running in me, equivalent to how much I believe he is all powerful and zealous in love for his people when I work, when I'm at home, when I'm out and about this life that I call is His?

It is in the doing as I am believing where love is displayed.
John 13:35 "By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another."
It's by our love for one another, people see that we're part of a family that love much deeper within.
So be loved, and love.

Another thing I am also convinced of, the Spirit loves a dialogue.  Though a few words or a sentence can indeed make our hearts undone, He's much more of a conversation starter.  After all, if we love to hear him speak, you gotta talk to him too, you know?

musicians rise up today. because even the music is but about the One who is able to speak things and they come alive.

here's all of my heart mind soul and strength this morning, God. Giving to the One who promises to be there when I arise.

only when I find that it's hard to love people around me the way God has called me to or do things boldly as he tells me to I know that he is still doing in me a perfection that i have not yet achieved, building a crown I have not yet gained.

hello wednesday.

Can you feel your hand in Mine?

when we are open to God, we are open to everything of God.  because our hearts are crying out for him.  we want everything and anything, no matter the amount, that has to do with him.  we want to be like him.

when you wake up in the morning, be aware of what runs through your mind.  i find things fill up my mind on some days more than others.  on the days i actually really to be with the Lord i am filled with things to do.  but i need to remember that it is HIM i serve and not my to-do list.  we won't find Him in just the doing.  He is found in the resting.  Seek his kingdom and his righteousness. need to ask myself- what is the one thing that i seek?

hungry for more of God this morning.  Thank you Abba

we must live like Christ is coming back.  and surely He shall.

"Blessed are those who mourn." What can it mean? One can understand why Jesus hails those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, why he hails the merciful, why he hails the pure in heart, why he hails the peacemakers, why he hails those who endure under persecution. These are the qualities of character which belong to the life of the kingdom. But why does he hail the mourners of the world? Why cheer tears? It must be that mourning is also a quality of character that belongs to the life of his realm.
 
"Who then are the mourners? The mourners are those who have caught a glimpse of God's new day, who ache with all their being for that day's coming, and who break out into tears when confronted with its absence. They are the ones who realize that in God's realm of peace there is no one blind and who ache whenever they see someone unseeing. They are the ones who realize that in God's realm there is no one hungry and who ache whenever they see someone starving. They are the ones who realize that in God's realm there is no one falsely accused and who ache whenever they see someone imprisoned unjustly. They are the ones who realize that in God's realm there is no one who fails to see God and who ache whenever they see someone unbelieving. They are the ones who realize that in God's realm there is no one who suffers oppression and who ache whenever they see someone beat down. They are the ones who realize that in God's realm there is no one without dignity and who ache whenever they see someone treated with indignity. They are the ones who realize that in God's realm of peace there is neither death nor tears and who ache whenever they see someone crying tears over death. The mourners are aching visionaries." 
- N.Wolterstorff, Lament for a Son

it's so important to watch our speech because you never know it could just very be the moment you didn't think it mattered that someone hadn't heard an encouraging word all day. about their worth and beauty in Jesus's eyes.  and when we choose to give life, He will make all the difference.

so so so beautiful and encouraging to see people who are secured in their identity and have found their worth and beauty in that of Christ living life full of joy!

Psalm 27:4

"One thing I ask from the LORD, this only do I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze on the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple." 

-----

one of the reason we have gifts is that we may show our friends that they have eternal value :)  so make your gifts. write your songs. dedicate it and dedicate it often.

Lately whenever i ask God what is there for him I can do today- he often replies with what he once said in Scripture. "Learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart."

He requires that I be humble and still in these days at home which I've found to be the most difficult.  The first week back home has been most unpleasant because other than seeing the same home I've been away from for the past four years, I come home to find my pride, my bitterness, my selfishness, and my anger that have been stored away.  In these past 7 days, God has called me back home to confront these things and it hasn't been pleasant because I faced it all at once.  It was like looking myself in the mirror, asking myself, "Surely, I have grown to know Jesus' patience, gentleness, and humility in which He had urged me to learn from. Surely, I am different.  But surely, I am still in need of Him in this time for I have a feeling there are deep, deep things at home that have been neglected or pushed aside out of my own sin, insecurities,  and hurt. But I have found hope and He is for me."  I have come back to find my mom's hurt but even as I picked her up from work tonight, I was given a new understanding.  I saw not a woman that always seems to just be there at home, but a mom that still carried joy from the Lord on the inside and looks forward to coming home to have dinner with her daughter.

I followed this car home once while I was still in Austin, near the day I left for home in Houston.

I've seen hundreds of bumper stickers and window stickers over my life time, I'm sure.  This one seemed to pride, or humbly proclaim, the value of family.  This one struck me to the heart.  It hurt, for some reason.  Because that moment I knew it was God speaking to me.  I sort of forsaw at that moment that the road that leads to life is narrow but a necessary one.  All the patient, love, and wisdom God has bestowed unto me over the past four years and sustained in my heart, he wanted it to be displayed at home. To my mom. And all those I escaped from or have ignored.  Escaped and ignored for they were too big for me to handle, or too emotionally draining for me to process.  Or simply because I was not matured enough to healthily rise up above it.

 I've seen hundreds of glossy stickers, but this one, at that moment, was profound.  This is a calling.  Family is everything. Right now. It's everything to Him that I would return home.  So therefore return home with all your heart, mind, and strength.

Even more so, I find that He is constantly calling me home. To Houston, to make room in my heart where the Spirit of God can dwell and makes Himself home.  To heaven, where there will no longer be tears, hurt, or pain.  No more misunderstandings, guilt, accusations, and lies.  Just love.  In all His glory.

Sometimes it's those quiet mornings where you wake up without an alarm and you sense a stillness in the room.  So still that your heart is made calm.  It's still early in the morning and you're reminded of His unfailing love.  There you find a peace that leads to a God you would entrust  your life with and even if it doesn't at times, I'd do everything to lean to be able to give my everything.

Psalm 73 has been me.  Psalm 73 will be me.

wake up in the morning to give You my best.  our days are numbered!! so fill it with the greatest of hope in Christ that He will make all things new.   friends who have found your greatest joy in Christ, we live with one common purpose and aren't just bounded by common hobbies or favorite foods.  there is much depth to His kind of friendship that he calls us to than we'll ever know. but hey, who's to stop us from trying to understand and live that as much as we can???

mystery

perhaps one of the most profound mystery lies within the ability for us to remain in gratitude as long as we live.   to fixate our ultimate gratitude on the One who gives and takes away, who offered Himself up freely produces a kind of unconditioned praise from those He gave His life for.

gratitude brings joy!

big in the small

love how God takes the grand scheme of things, things like faith, hope, and love and shows us here's how it all plays out in the details! it's like him saying, "Hey! Kids! Check out why and how I do things today!"

don't just think.  think in terms of beauty.  that every moment is measured by the beauty of it.

true life is love.  in real time, real place, real people, real hurt, real talk, real faith.  It's Christ on the cross, Christ raising up from the dead, Christ having anything to do with us, and Christ telling us to love each other like He does with us.

this brings up one question.   How then shall I live?

“God has not been trying an experiment on my faith or love in order to find out their quality. He knew it already. It was I who didn’t. In this trial He makes us occupy the dock, the witness box, and the bench all at once. He always knew that my temple was a house of cards. His only way of making me realize the fact was to knock it down.” - C.S. Lewis

When discipline, follow-through, & faithfulness aren't as natural as breathing, remember that Jesus is worth it.

so much to learn.  but  grateful that You will bring truth when the time comes.

that of what is even greater than passion is our God who is behind it all and says the purpose of it all is to know Him.

because it's not okay when our hearts of justice and mercy lie dormant and little while we spend our money lavishly on things for ourselves, while we spend our time idly, while we carelessly throw out our hearts, and throw others' hearts because we haven't found Christ as the ONLY ONE to be our security. oh to see like You do. :)

"Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls." Matt 11:29

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vuWLus6Ga_w&list=PLE1CA30DE37DBDF47

i'm more convinced that people in this day and age just need to see someone who can hold onto one thing and believe in it.  it's the same and extremely crucial that it is our faith in Christ exceeds in that way.  The thing is, people know hope and faith when they see it.  Who does your life display?

More of You and less of me.

seek first His kingdom, and all these things will be given to you.  and so i will seek You.

love is not a small feat

let not those God loves be easily forgotten.  Love God openly and honestly and you'll find yourself loving people in the same way!

"I only remember 2 things.  I am a great sinner, and Christ is a great Saviour."

from the movie Amazing Grace directed by Michael Apted about the life of William Wilberforce during the slave trade

be for others what you long for them to be for you

this is friendship in His name

so thankful to those who have taught me to not only love, but to love purely and sincerely. :)

maybe sometimes the question isn't if we're going to make it in the end.  The end will come. then it'll be eternity :)

perhaps the question is that how will we be when the end comes?  Will I be found faithful? Will I be found still giving my 110% by His grace?  Will I be found known as His?

Does my life make Him known?

"it's the choices we make that bring glory to His name"

no standard other than His standard.
a phrase as simple sounding as "I gave my life to Jesus." Sometimes I forget that's what it meant when I said I believed.

I read the Scriptures and once again think upon what it means to believe in Jesus.

had a thought today about if we would just all follow what the Bible says, if the way we're to love one another is the way God says, there would be no struggling of what to do and what we ought not to do.  But indeed there is this tug-o-war of my flesh and spirit every single time. but we're about to rise up and out of it every time when we abide. by abide, I mean we listen then do.

---

crazy year it has been.  the toughest ones are the good ones, because He is still good in the end.  this year in the times of abundance or lack of family and community, as I look back, I realize my gifts I have come to treasure and also sins that I despised.  I am thankful that God had not left my prayers unanswered when I asked him to deal with my selfishness, pride, and other things that would hinder me to love fully before this semester ended.  He has and still is.  The more I realize this is what's been happening, I realize how this prayer was actually for the rest of my life.  Not just for a season but pure gold must be refined.  And we won't be perfect until He returns.  Just like that song by Jon Thurlow says,  "Things Are Not Okay" until the King returns.  I have seen and been what I have come to despise, even after my heart was transformed by Jesus, who is full of love, so full that His name is Love.  But now, I've tasted the goodness and freedom to completely turning my back on those things (His strength carries me through!) and moving on forward towards what is good, pure, noble, right, lovely, praiseworthy, trustworthy.  Praise be to God!

sink or swim i'm diving in
where the rivers starts running
where there is life
the passion of Your heart where love starts

to be constantly in a position where Your strength will be shown

did you see her through?
what has she seen from way up there?

courage is such a beautiful thing but with it there comes a maturity

you risk things. it's a moving on from the childish ways to the mature ways

the way of which we know the cost, but still continue to strain forward because we know what is before us is far more glorious, and more like the One that made us.

imagine people obeying God without any measuring of reward

though there will be and in itself will find it to be a reward in itself-to obey God

but for His people to obey him no matter the cost or gain

cuz we know He's good.  He's that good.

can't wait for Your return

what is required? to stay in the fire? will my commitments and devotions to You be the same?

it's because You're holy

sometimes I read the Word just because I want to remember who this God I'm in love with is like.

then I remember and find out something more to live out and go back to later on again. :)

"Jesus did many other things as well.  If every one of them were written down, I suppose that even the whole world would not have room for the books that would be written." John 21:25

"Hey remember, You were set apart for Me. I have a course set out just for you. A time of when I will bring to you iron that will sharpen yours, a time of trials, a time of suffering where you will grow to love humility before me, a time where worshiping me will only be the most freeing and most joyous of times, a time where your will will become weak but My Spirit will be strong in you, a time where serving others will bring you the greatest joy, a time where you will, indeed, face loneliness, rejection, and a time where you will be misunderstood, a time where you will be tempted. Tempted to feel frustrated thinking that you've run out of hope or will. Tempted to obey My commands out of obligation, because you have perhaps forgotten that you are my child and I am your Father.  but I'm the one that fights for you, forever.  It's good to trust in Me.  It's always good to trust me.  I understand.  Remember, you were set apart."

store up treasures in heaven.
set your heart on things above.
in you heart, set apart Christ as Lord.

what do You consider treasure?
that I will seek
I will seek it for all my days
for I do not know what tomorrow brings


Your kingdom draws my heart more and more
some days it seems like it's right before my eyes
when I really sit and think and look at people before me
You are wooing their hearts
happy to devote my life to the unsearchable

Your love no bounds

for the oppressed and the poor
for the silent and the needy

blessed are the meek
and meek I shall desire to be

Jesus, I love you

so
much

哥哥! 生日快樂 

imagining a world without justice and righteousness.  at least for the time being, as written in Isaiah 59.  it's scary.
My God is not short to save.  My God loves mercy, acts justly, and walks humbly.  We must go.  Don't want to live another day without knowing more of Your heart.  Your beauty!

He's going to bring justice to the fatherless.
heart of justice please arise in me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qc2AzrsrTP0

let Your people know that you are good.  You set them free. You are good.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jvOH1mDRbBg&playnext=1&list=PLDE33D1C345D6B1B0

focusing as hard as possible in the last days of school for my King cuz He's absolutely worth it!!  keep me meek that i may yield to You.   i only ask that He would start in me, in my friends and family, something that lasts forever.

Teach me.  I trust You. :)

to be Spirit-empowered through your trials is to come out and grow in perfection and in love with Christ

there are somethings about the heart we can't explain.  i'm filling out this spiritual survey as best as i could and i find myself moved by how much you've changed me all these years. joy and gladness wells up in my heart as i think, hey, i look like You. and I want to look more and more like You.  i'm thankful that He's been watching over me so well that I get to carry His heart. He entrusted me with all these people- teach me to love your people well. His heart is the best thing in me. it is good when our hearts align together. never felt so alive. You are life. these good things, your inheritance. You've given me so much that I may be more like You.  and you remind me still it's the relationship between You and Your people that's what's most important to you.  love for one another is to remember that when i speak, when i pray, when i think- it's that You speak, that You intercede, and that You think about us.

teach me your ways O God.  i want to live a life with reverence for You. it's a life being in love with You. it's beautiful.  it's pure. it protects, hopes, trusts, perseveres, and never, ever. counts the cost.

like the watchmen wait, I will wait on You

point and  joy of life : to love mercy, act justly, and walk humbly before my God.

"Stay hungry."

set out to make more sons and daughters of the King

finding myself caught up in just these 2 words: Beautiful King.

where the Spirit is there is awe and wonder.

perhaps truly, our greatest desire is know and be known.  more and more I see that my desire to know someone or some thing well grows the more I am exposed to those things or people.  To know something in and out.  and i find that it's fulfilling because there's a purpose in all things that have been created. there's a purpose in all the things that sit in front of me.  the remote control, the bowl of spaghetti, my keys, my books, the paintings on the wall, my roommates. it is this one desire i intentionally note. that it is one single desire.  it may come out as different desires for different things but ultimately it is in our spirit, in our heart to know and be known. and it shows. it shows in my life; it shows in the lives of the people next to me, across from me, far away from me. it shows in our pursuit of many passions, hobbies, or kinds of relationships (family, friendships, romance, children, mentorship).

because i'm so limited, in a way through in which the Lord speaks to me through my family compared with other people, I'm often moved, or rather desire to be moved, by every single detail.  I want to catch it all.  God is so detailed in the small things. It amazes me.  It astounds me.  He not only moves but moves with all of his wisdom and power and kindness and gentleness.  Can you imagine?  Someone that thinks about all of you and knows all of you right at that moment. and considers it all before they speak.  because they want to love you the best they can right where you're at.  but this idea might not be too crazy for Jesus.  it's the only way He ever does anything.  He is impartial and He is eternal. There is so much more. He is more. In His humility He doesn't get jealous or angry that we often see Him as less. It is just humanly impossible to fully know God.  (correct me if I'm wrong.)  He is humble because Jesus knows He has been and will be glorified by His Father. But my response is this:  not being able to know something fully doesn't mean I can't do my best to try to.  A good friend of mine once said, "Just because earth 'isn't our home,' never implied we shouldn't enjoy the visit." This ought to be taken with conviction, wisdom, discipline, etc, of course.  But even so, it is crucial to remember that we cannot do this on our effort.  the Holy Spirit brings Truth when the time comes and I can just rest assured that right up until my last breath, what He's revealed to me is enough for me to welcome Jesus back rightly.  By Him I cry out Abba. Through him, the church will know the  clear distinction of what is good and evil, that we may always say yes to the good and put away what is evil in which grieves him and the people we love.  because without God we wouldn't know how to love our enemies and why that is absolutely necessary that we do.    There is only a hand full of people God entrusts us to love them as He loves them. But in that hand-full of people, hold his will, his dreams, his promises, his relationship. By him, we know what is necessary for those that He loves and I have come to love and what is detrimental to the same group of people.  You want your heart to stay alive and beating and burning? You want a big goal to pursue? Take part in something bigger than yourself and give all of yourself to?  something that will keep your heart alive? Abide in Him. Abide in His Word.  Make effort to keep unity and be clear minded so that you can pray.  take up His charge to make disciples of all nations.  That's what's bigger than ourselves.  At the end of day, up until His coming, you'll find that all this life has to do with one thing.

Love.

and this Love has a name.

i wanna know, what does it really mean to be blessed?  what does it mean to feel blessed?

to know that i deserved nothing that are either hidden or right in front of me right now?

---
you are continually bringing to me what brings my heart to life.  i am so grateful.  i need to be alive.  need to abide

there is no condemnation or accusation.  just love

offer hospitality without grumbling

--

graduation gown.  crimson over red. His blood over my sins. What an honor to be able to put on those garments.  Humble me even as I walk across the stage, which, more than anything, serves as the epitome of Your success, Your dreams, Your hands, Your plans, Your will that's been walked out in my life. and the ones that are being walked out.  Even as I walk across the stage, may I carry you with me. May You carry me. May you walk before and go behind me.  May goodness and mercy follow me and leave a trail for those walking behind me.

---
You are reminding me that You are King and that You reign.

Shepherd's heart.  everything the Holy Spirit was brought up was mentioned in Pastor Ray's teaching today. haha.  He is my counselor and brings truth when the time comes.

Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.
James 1:27

if the world knew how You provide for them and care and fight for them, would they want to know you?  it's hard to accept that there will still be people who will reject you blatantly.  but i suppose I haven't done it at times too.  i realize those were the times where i haven't really thought about who are You are, who You are to me and what You've done for me.

Jehovah-jireh You are.

I will praise the LORD, who counsels me;
even at night my heart instructs me.

Keep my eyes on you, with you at my right hand,
I will not be shaken.

Psalm 16.   the Lord is my portion and my cup

thankful to a God that counsels me still, even after the times I took glory for myself.

More than often I find that He is still patiently chiseling away this rugged art piece.  Oh to remain pure and blameless before his eyes, lest it be a white-washed tomb!  Lukewarm will never do.

it's so precious, and so crucial to be confident and really know that God knows our hearts.

help me to live in a way that will allow only Your power and Your life will manifest through me.

pray in expectation that He will come.

to have a teacher that not only teachers. but cares about those he teaches.  that's a good teacher.

life together in love is a great protection against deception. or else why else would he say love one another because there are deceivers sent out in this world.

simple biblical words. with a deep love.

if you want to know a city. the very heart of the city. or better yet, the heart of God for the city, make an intentional visit to orphanages or to the least of these of the city.  go there prayerfully, with love, and expectation only to find him to yield to.  you will then find yourself at the center of his very own heart.  you will find Him there.  and you will come alive.

only Your kind of love remains

You always live to intercede.

John 15 and John 17

my desire for You overrides my compromise

Keepsake

heart for the orphaned- God, let it arise today

let Your heart of justice and your desire for your children to come home

be known

---
and campus workers

if we really, really, really thought about it...

the fact that God finds our praises pleasing is mind-blowing. it should shock us to the core. when we've hurt him, and he still accepts it as a pleasing offering.

what!?

no wonder David had once beckoned to let his praises be a fragrance to the Lord.
who are we to sing that our praises are fragrance? do we know what we did to him or does to him? because there are times where we grieve him- when we disobey. when i ignore that voice out of fear or pride.

God's love is so merciful. There is so much to him.

one thing i very much so agreed on that PJ said today-

there are hundreds and thousands of sermons and debates that talk about Christ's resurrection and if it indeed has happened. but i believe the real question that cuts to the heart is that this God has and wants anything to do with us.  He wants to be with his people and know that he loves them. that he cares for them.  i rather not spend most of my life arguing this and miss the whole point of the gospel.

God deserves every heart check needed before we meet to pray to him and worship together- that he may get the genuine worship in Spirit and in Truth that he deserves since the beginning of time

dove's eyes

first things first.

because there are moments where i can envision every single lip singing praises to Jesus.  the kind of singing that ushers in God's presence where it overwhelms masses as he touch people and awe and wonder suddenly dawns upon the heart after heart.  where people dance upon the sound of Your name.

you are still teaching me even as i hand out water tonight- that you care right into people's hearts.
Arthur was grateful and surprised and moved that we gave him water and asked us so if there's  a motive behind this.  now i know what to say.  they were from Penn U. really wish i had the guts to say what I wanted to say.  gotta stop this laughing i have when i'm nervous or just for the sake of filling space...


i wanna keep Your Word because I love you. gotta know the Word to keep it.

wisdom is knowing that everything is His forever. that his faithfulness is forever.

it's God that draws us together. a much omnipotent being, considers our affairs of the day to day life.  He is in it. He is part of it.  He is all of it.  from dust we came from to dust we will return.  the question remains is what is that beautiful thing He had in mind for you and would you give it all in to find out?

in it for His purpose. to live a life that says You are all that I'll ever need. Keep breaking down strongholds. :)  You are beautiful in the way that You love me.

my Father who art in heaven- i can't wait to see you

John 15:14 You are my friends if you do what I command. 15 I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master's business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. 16 You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit--fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. 17 This is my command: Love each other.


---
you ever wonder, maybe even just sometimes, why God would entrust us with something eternal?  it's incredibly precious to him. 

His love for us is great.

---

I want to be Your friend. 
To sit and consider Your ways :)

A father's heart.

A mother's heart.

My brothers and sisters.

We are each other's keepers.

thankful for Your grace today. I'll walk anywhere though my cross may be heavy.  You never forsake me. :)

Knowing that my God never leaves makes my heart ready to sacrifice and give without expecting anything in return.

Getting ready for His coming, you know?

trial and testing prove there's gold

just reconnected with a dear old friend of mine that has been going to school in Canada.  a sense of privilege swept over me to know that i know someone who lives there and is a dear friend of mine still. what grace!  i have done nothing to keep this friendship yet He sustains it to use as an encouragement.  His kind of encouragement pushes you forward. as i pondered upon this sense of privilege, i realize that's kind of the same with God.  what a privilege to have him go before me.  i have a friend in every inch of this world, who knows it well, who knows me well.

Whom shall I fear?

how can I honor You rightly?
How? How? How?

too lofty for me to attain

sometimes we just need to be with God- with no agenda except one for him to determine it, with no request except one for him to search my heart, with no words that he may speak first, with no expectation except one for him to exceed my expectations.

and when you find yourself in that place, you realize how sweet it is that He brought you there.

--
You are sweeter than wine.

"Catch the glimpses.  I'll bring more."

the rest of my semester- to learn and overcome what i need to learn and overcome.  every moment is a "this is it" moment.

God please come and determine my steps.

i can. not. believe. i was just reminded of this wall of refrained worship and how that all came down this past Sunday. i had always looked forward to this moment.  like my head is above the water no matter how deep i go.  it is the most liberating thing to be before Him and simply responding to who God says he is- it really only elicits a real response, a desire to worship and nothing else will do but real heart to heart worship.

worship.worship.worship.worship!!! God i ask for REALNESS.  i ask for YOU. in me. in the people around me. please. please move your people.  let people be moved by your love. we need you.

---
was just reminded of how much i write down stuff nowadays.  how you brought me from a place of being shy and maybe even ashamed (i repent.) for writing things down years ago and now fervently finding myself scribbling down stuff and having to use pictures as codes because of the amount of thoughts and things that just keeps coming and coming.

You remind me to trust in You when i do forget- that the Holy Spirit will reveal to me at the right place at the right time.  i really think at some point the breakthrough just came out of me realizing these are things i absolutely cannot forget.  and as i write them down i find how precious they are. how precious Your thoughts are.  how lovely they are.

the crazy part if that He shares it with me.

may You be delighted at my heart when you take even just one look!

may You be delighted in the way I care.  in the things and people I think about and the way I think about them.

May everything I do bring You delight.

that in the day I am most soft-spoken and silent, that You would still find my heart pleasing to You :)

good Daddy you are!

-----

he asked me another real question today-  what do I think is important?

love how you develop my heart.  i don't know if that's the right word but it makes me think of a photography in a black room.  little by little the photos are revealed.  it starts in the dark place and you reveal the negatives. in which in turn shows in the light.   you have to prepare every step. every chemical every pan, every tray, lift every machine and open every lid. hang up every photo that's dripping once it goes through the whole process.  Just like that you reveal to me, me.  Me in You. :) it's full of miracles everyday.

You are doing that. Precisely. :)

---
makes all the difference to know that someone is praying and cheering you on to your victory.

be that someone. He'll provide them for you too.

--
obedience to God is the most excellent way :)

this is excellence.

love is loving someone even though no one else around might think they're worth it, you love because you know Jesus loves them. loving someone is being at the very moment, us- being not omniscient, not knowing anything about that person and being able to love them like they're your family.  (but to also know the Spirit is able to tell you exactly what that person is going through or who he is- that this is possible.  because the Father knows them so well)

then perhaps there is one even greater.  greater in the sense that His love is most magnified. it's still the same love. like it's the same word but when you go closer with a magnifying glass it's more clear and to us appears larger. but it's always been what it is.  and i pray that this is how we see his love at all times.  and this is what i speak of: the love comes even greater- where His power and grace comes in fullness. when they think you're not worth it but you still love.

maybe thats why Jesus tells us to love our enemies.  and also to love one another- because this is how they'll know His love for us. it's real!
------
do we even feel the need to fulfill and follow the law anymore?  His commandments.  because back in the day, if people didn't, they either are killed or their sorrow and repentance almost makes them want to.   though we're no longer a culture that tear our clothes off when we're sorrowful how are we surrendering? responding?  mmmm

Holy Spirit whispering last shall be first today.  and constantly that my speech needs to be seasoned with grace. i see why now.

all these conferences and miracles- may all of these lead to Your people to fall in love.

it's quite the mystery we can believe in Him but find that I don't love him or perhaps not love him as much as we can. but i suppose that's the process of getting to know someone. and what better than simultaneously finding out more about the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit and falling in love.  It really has to work that way in the end.  You can't just find out more about Love that is for you and not be in love.  yes there is hurt that cut deep. and trials that will wear you out.  but you know, it really is only but for a moment.  He is the same yesterday, today, and forever.  (heb)

---
sharing about Verge.

The harvest is really. ready.  Please keep me in love with you as I'm meeting all these people who are open to Your kind of friendship.  May my speech be seasoned with grace. that the gospel who be preached. now that I've begin to understand the value, reality, and necessity of discipleship - please. help me to live that hand in hand.  I just met a classmate and out of excitement just told him about how my life has changed and he jumped at the sound of me saying that my life had changed.   this is the kind of transformation people are SEEKING.  the harvest is ready. the harvest that is ready are the people who are ready to be intrigued. and not JUST intrigued perhaps but ready to change.  to know change.  to believe they can be changed for good. to be of use and purposeful.  for Him. there is no purpose more fitting than living for Him.  His purpose. ah.

may this encoutner I had this encouragement be an anchor for the times in the future where I will meet discouragement and people who aren't open to know who You are. and for some, who might even speak against you.  I so far haven't encountered anyone like that yet- maybe because I haven't gone to those people yet. maybe it's His grace that He is teaching me

would rather find myself distracted from my homework then ending up reading the Bible for hours than the other way around. would You keep me in a place where I wouldn't be distracted from when I read Your Word.

perhaps this is what it looks like when my heart yearns.

there's discipline. and then there's yearning.

i have this sudden desire and question to figure out what the Church is different in compared to the rest of the world. His love is unlike any others'.  No wonder He tells us to love and that people will know Him by our love for each other.

it's time to devote our whole lives to love persistently.  because this is it.  because this is what is at stake. this is the point.  that people would know Him.  if we don't think that's the point, God help us.  It's about You and people knowing You.  Your character.  What makes you smile, what makes you grieve.  How timely you are. How you care for us.

You care for us.

sometimes finding out my own deepest desire scares me.  not that the need scares me but how much I want and feel like I need it- up until the very point where I feel like my heart can no longer contain the longing inside.  that scares me.  it scares me to realize how much I need Jesus.  because at that point i get a glimpse of who I am without Him.  then comes in the One who is Perfect and Just and Merciful in all His ways and rushes a reality of His love into my heart until I can no longer stand or kneel there idle.  But this weight is different.  It makes me feel secure and makes me believe in Jesus, the One who is trustworthy.  you ever meet someone who is worthy of your trust?  and one whom you can entrust?   He is the One.

at tca today, the Lord searched my heart and i realized I just needed someone to tell me they believed in me this whole time.  I am so inconsistent with my tasks and time management. the thing that grieved me the most was that it is completely unlike Him.  He is swift because when he sees hurt, he knows it's important because the one holding the hurt has had his affection since the beginning of age.  

only You will do.

if low is where I'll find you, I'll go as low as You ask me to- as long as You are there God I'll say yes.  I want to see how you provide and ravish and blow my heart away.  Please, would you take me to places of trials to show me how much you are all-powerful, all-knowing, and all-present.  

last shall be first

though the lowly maybe low, they are not forgotten by You.

oh to be someone with nowhere to go other than wherever He goes.

studying for sociology of criminal justice exam tonight.  just read over the term "working personality":

A personality characterized by authoritarianism, cynicism, and suspicion, developed by police officers in response to danger and the obligation to exercise authority.

thinking and praying for our police officers tonight.  may their hearts not be hardened towards the gospel when they hear of it and the acts of kindness you display before them.

#saveYourpeople

in it to see Him turn tides

make me an instrument of your peace

ended up with pages FILLED with things the Spirit was teaching and reminding me during class this morning... he is teaching me so much i can't stop writing.  this is grace: it looks like i'm fervently taking notes in class... why does he choose to teach me when the normal/ usually right thing to do is pay attention to your professor. i don't know- but i'm not saying no!

He always makes thing work. and makes a way that i can learn deeper things from the surface things.  Lord please help me be more practical but don't draw me far away from the heart of what really matters. learning the importance and need to sit on things after i learn though.  he keeps using my classes to teach me how to read.  then he shows me out of love, these skills pour over into reading His Word.

Diligence is what he is counseling me in. :) Diligence is what I've been desiring.  it's the Spirit in me desiring.  no other delight is like this: to desire what the Spirit desires. so precious.  You are so precious.

#pearlofgreatprize

amazing thing about his love is that it spreads wide but never spreads thin.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&v=QmtRX_AZcPg&feature=endscreen

there's a fire shut up in my bones
--

http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&v=k3ax-LlD274&feature=endscreen

JUST learned some of these exact. things. learned it verbatim this week. wow. Counselor.

yielding. loving the hidden.

--

there is NEVER loss in yielding to the Spirit.

1 Timothy 4:12

"Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith and in purity."

vision and heart towards ms/hs. they lead in conduct and thought and faith and everything. they reflect so much of you. i dare not call them rowdy again; these are Your children.  thanks for reminding me that they are more than their behaviors and to enjoy them as they are while exhorting them :) help me be a humble teacher....help me honor them.  


considering them as better.

♪

You are beautiful
in the way that You saved me
in the way that You gave me life

---
gotta be ready when someone ask for the hope that we have!
maybe sometimes we just think too much that we're not jumping at sharing what the Lord has been doing. or perhaps it's been a deep work- too deep for words. but either way, it got me thinking about this once again.

"But in your hearts set apart Christ as Lord.  Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have.  But do this with gentleness and respect, keeping a clear conscience, so that those who speak maliciously against your good behavior in Christ may be ashamed of their slander." 1 Peter 3:15-16

it's about being ready to exalt him at all times.  in tune with Jesus' heart as a servant.

haha. just remembered our most used quote from missions at Cagayan de Oro in a much familiar accent:

"Ready now? Ready now?"

bringing much truth and conviction now.

it's the asking and still wanting to know Him, to see Him and to be with Him after a trial- that's fruit. that's faith producing perseverance.

"Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us."
Romans 5

pride. temptation. shame. doubts.

so real.

humility. perseverance. character. hope. 

He's real.

here's to another time where He's used a sermon by John Piper to counsel me and tell me everything that's going on and what I'm going through.  he understands.

i don't know how He does it but it's right on.  He is my counselor.

http://www.desiringgod.org/resource-library/sermons/the-word-of-god-is-at-work-in-you

please God. please keep blowing me away with your words that were spoken through a message preached over a year ago.

things are right and timely when we consider You first.

"exhibit A that you are a Christian- how you carry through trials. you may be weeping your eyes out but there's still joy because he's there."

many times you have to hold onto Truth until you see it come to pass. and you can literally see it come to pass.  the Bible does not lie.  and it says everything like it is.  peace that guards your heart when you present him your request? check.  looking after orphans and widows, and that's what God calls a religion that is pure? check.  mercy anew? check.  God so loved the world he gave his only Son?  i do not dare to check and just move on. i am not even worthy to just make some remark.  this is something incomprehensible by man. why would a perfect God, who only knew of the unity and secure relationship and peace, freedom, fulfilling love give all that up for us?  for me?

and the crazy thing is that there are times where you find yourself reading a verse and think, that time when the words before you become tangible because it's so close to home it either hurts or resonates until it moves your heart.  not the bubbly heart with an exclamation point gloss over it kind of heart but the tender and most vulnerable and sensitive kind. the real, deep deep ohh deep down down kind.  real. tangible. what i'm read is exactly i can actually live and see it happen real.  which goes to show there is a real reason behind all of Scripture. Hope is just as tangible as the boost of confidence you feel. confidence is really belief and deeper understanding of His sovereignty mayhaps!

read from my virtual journal from a couple days ago: 

"God, bring me to things that will lead me to care about who you care about."

i've been noticing how i'm living in this now. wow i feel it.

--

Sink or swim, I'm diving in
Where the river starts rushing
Where my heart starts beating
For the rhythms of the testing
and the songs of the trials
I will lift a cry up to You
Sung with hope inside my eyes

Give Me a Song - United Pursuit Band

--
rhythms of the testing means rhythms to Your victories.  swimming in Your rhythms of lovingkindness, gentleness, and forgiveness.

 you take care of each other as best as possible so people who are running with you in this life wouldn't have to worry about where they have lack (but not ignore) so they can focus on exceling in whatever they're good at and have called to be and do.

if a sister is tired, bring her a chair!
so she can keep sewing. or singing. or preaching. or something.

#acts2attitude

constant dependency

knowing You allows us to walk righteously, purely, and genuinely, speak gently, listen quickly, and act mercifully, and love abundantly because You did. :) 

one of those times when you remember that what you're living in you once prayed for or the Lord once told you.

ah, my heart.

things always start to happen when fasting starts.  when one says more of him and less of me.  when one says whatever it takes to get to You.  when one says I'm in it for the long haul.  when one says til death to us apart.  expect trials and temptations. expect confusion. expect uneasiness.  expect speechlessness. but all the more expect goodness, holiness, joy, gentleness. expect that the One you learn to lean on in this time prevails. expect speechlessness, but this time, because you're in awe.  Death can't even tear us apart, ha! Life wins. Love wins.  You won yesterday, You win today, You win forever.

Where You begin, darkness ends.  Make fresh beginnings with my community God.

In me. Mercy anew over me. Over us.

Always dig deeper. Crying out to the deep.  Seriously.

The Last Train Home

I really am grateful that God brought me here at UT, before I even knew there was a film program.  It's prestige and honestly, we have a lot of connections- a lot of which I had just recently found out about.  Only have I recently started to embrace these perks of being an rtf major really.  i had went into this major praying that the Lord would somehow lighten up my school work that I may carry more of His heart for this campus, this city, and whoever and whatever kinds of people He wants to put on my heart. Some burdens I have learned to guard it with consistent prayer and discipline, and others, like children and the 9-5, feels like they've been embedded deep down in my soul by His grace in and out of season.

Yesterday night, Heather screened The Last Train Home for class, a feature length documentary that followed families that have to live in extreme distance from their homes to work in factories to provide for their children or the rest of their family living in more urban areas in China. (it takes them a week of bus ride or a few days of train ride to get home, and a week prior to departure to purchase tickets). Their living conditions and limited expenses allow them to go home only once per year during New Years.  I watched thousands of people pushing through metal fences and police officials, a father hitting his daughter out of distraught and disappointment until the daughter falls defeated and exhausted on the ground.  i sat there conflicted, but I kept my eyes open.  Compassion and anger all mixed up within me that hour and a half until I felt like my heart was about to burst at any moment.  But it wasn't the anger but something else was filling up my heart.  I felt like a balloon being pumped with air.  I wasn't in over my head; I was not rising. But I sat in m chair until I was arrested by His love for people.    it got to a point in the movie where i was not too unfamiliar with the rural farms and bustling cities in China, my heart was so overwhelmed I just started asking God why I was feeling what I was feeling.  It was overwhelming but not overbearing.

RTF is perhaps anything you can think of.  Every reaction and assumption people make becomes part of being an RTF major.   it's all the initial reactions of wows and cools that might make the person that just answered, "Biochemistry." right before me have a lot less cool points (so important, btw. not the cool points. the Biochem).  the glamour- it's there.  the humor- it's there. the fun- it's there. the down and dirty- it's there.  the late nights, long stares, and napkin sketches- definitely there.  finding out how much you can enjoy, love the quirky people, and laugh and cry with them- it's there. but still, I'm convinced. There is no true enjoyment apart from knowing Him.  Because if He says He is true life. that He is the only way, truth, and life- that means there's so much more to the best friendships I have with people that don't know Him yet.   But I know.  That He is in my classrooms. He is at UT and he often breathes and speaks to his people.  His Truth is still setting people free.

please teach me how to love you rightly. i'm praying and asking.  please open the door. i know You're there.

--
I need to watch 2 outside documentary screenings with q&a panel this semester for my class and time is running out for these opportunities. I was seriously struggling to decide because I haven't been to any this semester yet.  but the one tonight is about sexual assaults in the US military.  The Lord knew better for me to watch it.  Through bumping into Emily and asking the Lord if i should watch this one, they both said no. and told her I had been a bit emotionally distraught but I finally settled on no after i asked one more time on the way home.  the Lord doesn't change his mind on those he protects.

lesson: don't move until he does. not even according to opportunities. yes there are open doors and yes they may be from God but oh, the pleasure of being mindful of him and to be able to consider his ways!  Also, honestly, just might save you a lot of unnecessary heartbreaks and disappointments if we, His friends, would just be more mindful of our Best Friend.  His intentions are forever pure and right.  Forever. and...right now.  and right now. and now again. FOREVER.

Love always protects. I am so convinced that He provides. Thank you for the lessons you teach that go a lot longer than I know.  It's not my will but Your faithfulness.  I have a feeling I'll be resting on this Truth again.

You are so good to me. More of you and less of me, please. Amen and Amen!

--
songs about God and songs to God just aren't the same.  Not better or worse perhaps, just not the same. wanna sing straight to Your heart. more than often i find that it's because no one else will do. :)

just came back from the chop and i just cannot shake off His presence.  we sang It is Well- a simple yet beautiful song (i am so convinced worship in gratitude is ever the proper and natural response to who God is and able to do). It was never more befitting at the time. I love the way God gives more and more meaning to things I've probably come across so many times.

And then He moved me.  Lord haste the day when my faith shall be sight.    At that very moment during that line it was like he stamped this vision on my heart with a loud thud. i get it. what lies ahead. what all that he is drawing me to and requires by faith- this is the hope made tangible and possible and real through Jesus: I get to see Him in sight in the end. And how worth it He is for me to walk His walk and His talk. by faith. for the rest my life here on earth.  for the rest of today and everyday. more and more has he emphasized it's about being faithful day to day.

it's these times with You i pray that it would never be taken away.  i am so grateful that You have made Yourself possible for us to be so near to us and allowing me to find You so dear to me.

i had spent my morning and afternoon at the Austin Marathon handing out water and cheering for runners at the last water station of the full marathon.  By then, whoever that made it had already ran 25 miles.  From the water station looking ahead, a hill is clearly visible for every runner on it's path.

Will you still run when you feel like no one else around you is running?
How will you run when you're by yourself?
With people?

God, you really get me thinking sometimes.  Actually always.

Am I alone worth your all?

Yea...

Because there are times when others are behind due to their own pace and struggles. Everyone had on different outfits and carried different things- some more than others according to what they felt was necessary to keep them energized, hydrated, and warm.  For you, you might not need to carry so many things anymore from this time on.

You seriously have endless ways to speak to me.  I get it.

It's because I have learned I have everything I need in You.  I signed up to get more than just knowledge and experiences.  I signed up to know You.  I'll run for You.

I know you did.

:)

--

also learned that no matter where you are or on a Sunday- the point is that i want myself, my brothers and sisters to have fallen more in love with Jesus.

Church is where He is the head.  You lead as the One who has finished this race.

it's only under pressure that fine wine is made.

set my eyes upon Your radiance.

i can barely get through a few pages in an hour because He keeps teaching me things. 

it's a novel! about russian fairy tales!  

jn21:25 not enough room in this world for books about what Jesus has done.
add to it.

sometimes, more often than others, it's a much more beautiful thing to see things unfold than to make it work. :)  act of unveiling means something is presented and God does it so wonderfully. It's beautiful. Jesus is so beautiful in all His ways.
the act of waiting ought to be valued more and more in our lives!

nothing speaks trust than to wait when you could be doing every other thing- perhaps when we take matters into hands, it's when we forget who is Giver of all things anyhow.  But grace is the name I can call upon!

waiting patiently.

His presence of reconciliation, friendship, and peace in our apt today.  someone earlier last week came in and said they felt so peaceful as they came in.  I remember when I had prayed for this specifically.  His presence always makes all the difference.  He remembers.

Your nearness is so good

You are my Counselor.

i love it when You remind me of all the things you've taught me.  They are still as good as it first gripped me. there is still life attached to every Truth.  it is truly alive and active.  Jesus is still alive and active!! it's just like when i first understood You and the things you show me. like a revelation of how a formula substitutes and works its way into solving a problem.  and you find out how each variable relates to one another.  it's kinda like life.

woke up this morning feeling like I was covered in prayer.  confidence and peace. often being covered in prayer is knowing that i must abide.   Jesus's readiness is being ready to give Himself away.  I can only give what I have.

who yearns to know You today?

first leads to the reality that

I need to know You.

whether it was because someone else had prayed for me or the reality that Jesus lives to intercede for me there's nothing like understanding that He is for me. that blessed assurance to know a friend is for you.  that they look forward  just to see you.

every time i think that Jesus is still mindful of me moves me so deeply. to be mindful of someone is an expression of love. i am so convinced that He is. for me, for you.  when you're in love with someone you protect all their ways. love always protects, always trusts, always hopes, and always perseveres. all these things are all selfless. you can't protect others if you're protecting yourself.

hope.to  expect with confidence.  feeling that something will happen for the best.
more and more has Jesus's victory and returning been my hope.

when the Spirit is present, even dictionary.com becomes convicting.

if a little Truth is about to steer my ship, let me be ever watchful of my thoughts and speech.  it's every little way i get to live knowing I am loved by You.  You give and take so well.  I won't be reserved.

I know You hear me.  Help all my unbeliefs!

On another note, we get to live with the attitude of "TGIF" on MTWTHFSaS! Ha! love starts today because He started it an eternity ago.

let He who loves the Lord say so. :)  #actionandtruth

i want to catch everything He has to say. And I so desire to rightly respond in affection and proper understanding.  He speaks sometimes to uplift us and other times to convict. (in which I've been convinced that he does this in the most sharp but gentle way.  His words cut deep but is so clear and his love is right there with those words.) other times he speaks to us because he knows our heart delights in hearing him or seeing things he shows us. all these different purposes of him speaking and simultaneously teaches me about the kind of God He is to people he loves every single time.  that He is unlike any other god or person we will ever come to know or look up to. or be inspired by.
---
please keep my heart close- because I'm meeting very talented and honorable men and women i want to learn from. it's like they carry part of you. and no doubt i see You in them.  but YOU alone are my God!
---
let all my walls and defenses fall
and your light break in and shine all around
You love is better than all the world can give.

what more beautiful than this grace over every beginning of each semester in which God hand-picks people to be in the same class!  May it be for that few or just one person you want to show love to or that group of people that needs encouragement and freedom- ask the Lord for His heart.  love your neighbor as yourself. love the Lord your God.

New semester: get ready to love.  with fullness of heart mind soul and strength.

God, please help us discern and respond swiftly and rightly to whenever Your heart is tugging at mine.

You love all these ones at UT!